Some of you may have noticed that Carla has been busy 'reducing her cyber-footprint' of late.
I have to admit that it's got me pondering the pros and cons of my 'cyber-life'. Both as it is at the moment and how it's been over the 5 years during which I've had various profiles on different sites. The main one (obviously) being The Lone Groover here and at the old Journalspace.
I think it's easy for blogging/facebooking/MySpacing/YMing/MSNing, or whatever flavour you choose, to slowly take over your life without your realising it. It certainly has done in my case.
In some ways, I'm grateful for the time I've spent on-line.
In other ways, I curse the day I ever bought a bloody PC.
I hate the way that it brings out the worst in me sometimes, as it has done this very morning.
I've just become so very, very weary of it.
It's simply not worth it anymore.
I've had several people tell me over the last couple of years that I "have it all".
They see me as driving from gym to gym, doing personal training sessions, massage sessions and teaching classes.
They see me as being able to come and go as I please, with no-one waiting at home with the proverbial rolling pin to give me the 3rd degree over where I've been or why I've been working so late.
Those things may be true, but I'm far from 'having it all'.
I've lost count of how many times I've walked into my empty flat at the end of the day, then turned right around again and gone to my local ASDA, just to be around other people. How sad is that?!?!?
There are some distinct advantages of living alone, in many ways it's bloody marvelous, but there are times (too many times) when it's just too quiet and lonely for comfort.
Yes, I have a (very) small group of friends and family who'll take pity on me occasionally and invite me out, but on the whole, I don't do a great deal socially.
To some degree, my work is a little like having a paid social life. After all, the gym is leisure time for most people and it DOES rub off on you, but it's not the same as a social life.
It's still my job at the end of the day.
I need to work on it.
TODAY'S MOOD: Pondering.
SOUNDTRACK: Faith No More - 'I Started A Joke'
FOOTNOTE: I was supposed to be going to the gym early this morning, oh well.....
The Lone Groover